Before we start, two scriptures for you to consider,
Psalm 121:2 – My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth.
Psalm 46:1 – God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
Have you ever been around people yet you feel as though you’re all alone? That was me. When I was around 14/15 years old I struggled significantly with accepting myself the way I was. I never felt good enough. To me I wasn’t smart enough, pretty enough or liked enough to be worth much. My self-esteem was based on the opinions of other people; only the negative opinions mind you, anything positive didn’t really count. However, despite what I thought about myself I continued to be active in church.
Yep, I was that kid.
I couldn’t have people thinking that I wasn’t ok, after all I had a “position”. Hence even though I was crumbling on the inside, I’d built a “Jericho Wall” style barrier to hide the hurt and got on with doing what I was doing. What I didn’t realise is that in trying to hide/ignore this problem I wasn’t dealing with it and when you don’t deal with something it doesn’t go away, in fact you give it the opportunity to grow. And grow it did. I’d allowed low self-esteem, and ultimately pride, to shape my ministry without even realising.
I didn’t praise God like that person or sing and dance like that other person so obviously I’m doing this all wrong, right? Still didn’t stop to address the real issue though, I couldn’t bear the thought of how acknowledging that I was struggling would make me look. Instead I began “running on empty”. It was so easy to do and at times it seemed so hard to get out of that rut, but I’m living proof that it is possible. So I want to encourage you today that no matter the issue, it may not be pride or low self-esteem for you, either way God is greater than whatever struggle you are experiencing and just like He helped me, He can help you: it’s ok to ask for help?
Hebrews 4:15-16 – For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.
So, what to do?
I had to go back. Back to the source of my strength, back to my restorer, back to my help; God! God is never too busy to help you and nothing is too hard for Him. When we stray from God and begin to run on empty we often feel as though there is no way back, but there is! Christ sees and understands what we have been or are going through and by His grace we can be made whole again.
I had to humble myself and understand that my position in church is irrelevant if my relationship with God is non-existent. Once you understand that it really isn’t about what you look like to Man but what you look like to God, then you allow Him to truly heal your life.
Finally, I had to get back in my Bible, from a different perspective. It’s not about reading your Bible whenever you have to give a word or exhortation or even so that you can be the one to finish the speakers sentences on a Sunday morning. It’s about drawing closer to God, because regardless of your position, family ties or anything else, we all need more of Him in order to be able to function correctly and be effective.
Message: Don’t let pride, fear, shame, etc. stop you from asking God for help! Pray and seek Him concerning everything, He can and will be there for you.